About Zurab Kostava
*To be honest, I'm a bit of a lost artist, wandering through my own labyrinth.
For the Lazy ones
I’m not sure why I decided to create my own website. Maybe you could call it a portfolio, but it probably feels more like my digital home. A place where my chaos is organized, or perhaps just scattered more beautifully. It’s a space where my thoughts, explorations, musical experiments, unfinished stories, and visual ideas all come together.
I’m Zurab. You could attach almost any creative profession to my name, or maybe none at all. I’m scattered like dust in the art world – a composer without an instrument, a writer with unpublished books, a visual artist with unfinished projects . For me, the label isn’t what matters; it’s the process itself – the constant search and the thirst to create.
Ultimately, however you see it, my name is: Zurab Kostava. And I think that’s enough…
Also for the Lazy ones
but only those who (for some reason) find me interesting
If you’ve made it this far, it means you’ve passed the first “lazy” filter. Congratulations! You are now standing on the threshold of my digital home – a place where my chaos is organized, or perhaps just more beautifully scattered.
What awaits you inside? To be honest, I don’t exactly know either. This space is a living organism, just like me – constantly changing, perpetually searching.
Why now? Why this path?
For a long time, my ideas, projects, music, writings – everything I created – was my personal “treasure left on the shelf.” Locked away in closed files, in paused projects, in the dark corners of my mind. Why? The answer is simple and, simultaneously, painfully complex: Fear.
The fear of not being good enough. The fear of criticism, of failure. The fear that my “interesting-ness” existed only in my imagination. My inner critic, “Procrastination,” was terrifyingly convincing.
But something changed. Perhaps it was the 30-year threshold, perhaps the end of Nocturnes and the beginning of “Aubades”, or simply the realization that the time for “I’ll start tomorrow” had finally run out. I realized that I would rather be an unsuccessful artist than a successful coward. I would rather my work be seen, criticized, even mocked, than for it not to exist at all.
This website, and my presence here, is my answer to that fear. It is my personal revolution, my conscious choice—to step out of my “comfortable zone of suffering” and to simply… be. To create. To share.
Multidiscipline: Why "Scattered Like Dust"?
I often get asked (or I ask myself): Why music, writing, and visual art, 3D and code, endless ideas? Is this a lack of focus? Or simply an inability to make a decision?
You know what? It’s neither. For me, these different fields are not separate islands. They are one large, interconnected ecosystem. Ideas don’t arrive in my mind in a specific form. A single thought might begin as a melody, continue as a story plot, and find its visual conclusion in a film. These different disciplines are simply different languages I use to understand and convey the complexity and beauty of the world.
This isn’t about collecting professions. It’s a method of exploring the universe. I am a curious explorer whose laboratory is the entire world, and whose instruments are the brush, the pen, the keyboard, the camera, or the code editor.
And yet... Music: My First Language
Although I am “scattered like dust” across the arts, there is one world that has always been, and always will be, central for me: music. This isn’t just one of my interests. It is my first and most sincere language. It is the way I say things that words cannot express.
However, I rarely call myself a “musician.” Why? Because my path to music was not traditional. I am not a virtuoso instrumentalist. My instrument was often the computer, the mouse, and the keyboard. I am more of a composer and a music producer; someone who paints with sounds, builds worlds with melodies, and tells stories with rhythms.
For me, creating music is a process of disconnecting from reality and crossing into another dimension. This is my personal, deep, and limitless space, where I meet the most interesting side of myself. What matters here isn’t how “correctly” I play a chord. What matters is the emotion, the vibration, that I catch and try to turn into sound.
I especially love film music because it unites two of my greatest passions: sound and the visual frame. Hans Zimmer is my idol, not only for his music but for how he uses technology to convey emotion.
Despite long pauses and the occasional feeling that this path is unattainable, I always return to music. Because without it, I simply do not exist. It is my breath, the code of my existence.
An Artist/Creator with the Heart of a Scientist
Why didn’t I choose a more “pragmatic” path? Why art, when I could have been a technician, a businessman, or even a successful sales manager?
Because for me, creation is like breathing. It isn’t a job; it is my form of existence. An engineer searches for an efficient solution; a businessman seeks profit. I am searching for meaning, connection, beauty within the chaos. My primary currency isn’t money, but emotion and discovery.
At the same time, a scientist lives within me. For me, art is science, and vice versa. I am interested in “how” the world works – the laws of physics, human psychology, the logic of code, musical harmony. My creative work is often an experiment, a hypothesis test, an exploration of new territories. I am an artist who asks questions and a scientist who searches for answers in feelings.
I don’t create products for the market. I create questions, emotions, worlds – for those who are ready to journey with me.
The Creative Process: From Chaos to Harmony (or Vice Versa)
My creative process is rarely linear or organized. It’s more like a jazz improvisation – I start with one note, one color, one word, and see where it takes me. Sometimes it is chaos; sometimes, unexpected harmony emerges from that chaos.
I am not afraid of mistakes. On the contrary, failure is a source of inspiration for me. It is the “crack in the matrix,” the moment when something real is born. My “Aubades” are a reflection of this exact philosophy: embracing mistakes, enjoying the process, and the constant striving to be better than I was yesterday.
Why "Nocturnes" and "Aubades"?
You might be asking: What the hell are these “Nocturnes” and “Aubades”?
The answer is simple: They are my personal “series.” They are the episodes of my life that I love the most and that, more than anything, make me who I am.
For me, these transitional moments of the day – the mystery of the night, when the world seems to slow down and thoughts are set free, and the morning’s first light, when everything begins anew, from a blank slate – are the most inspiring periods. That is why I started writing personal public “confessions,” which I named as such. These are two seasons that are, in some way, intertwined. The morning’s entries are probably the answer to whatever questions I left behind at night.
It is precisely on this threshold, between sleep and wakefulness, between darkness and light, that I find a special “crack.” This is the space where logic and routine temporarily retreat, giving way to intuition, the subconscious, and those unfiltered emotions and ideas that get lost in the noise of the day. It is this “crack” that compels me to write, paint, and create; it lets me breathe and makes me a profoundly creative being.
How can the sunrise and sunset, this cosmic spectacle, not make me a better person? How can staring at a star-studded night sky not leave me in total awe and take my breath away?!
These entries are an attempt to capture these moments. This is my dialogue with myself and with the universe, in the hope that in the process, I will find not only inspiration but also the connection I am constantly searching for.
What do I want from you? (And what do I offer you?)
I am not looking for admirers or simple “followers.” I am looking for my “tribe” – people who, like me, ask questions, seek depth, value honesty, and are ready for mutual understanding and mutual growth.
What do I offer you? My sincerity. My world – with its light and its darkness, its discoveries and its dead ends. My questions, to which I have no answers, but which I will never tire of asking. My art – music, writings, visual experiments – as a means of starting a conversation.
This website is my open invitation to a dialogue. If you find something familiar, interesting, or something that simply sparks your curiosity in my work or my thoughts – join me. Write a comment, send me an email, follow me on social media.
Let’s, together, explore this strange, beautiful, absurd, and endlessly interesting labyrinth we call life. Who knows, maybe together we will find an exit.
Or, maybe, we’ll just enjoy the process of wandering.
Welcome!
Zurab Kostava
Zurab Kostava was born on February 19, 1995, in Ozurgeti, Guria, Georgia. He is of Georgian nationality and currently resides in Tbilisi.
Professionally, He serves as a Product Designer at the Education Management Information System (EMIS) of Georgia. Beyond this official capacity, he is the Co-Founder and CEO of Kostava Creative, an audio technology company and record label established in partnership with his brother and lead engineer, John Kostava.
Under the Kostava Creative banner, the brothers are pioneering the development of high-end virtual instruments (VSTs), audio samples, and presets. Their first mission is to bridge unique Georgian musical heritage with modern sound synthesis, creating professional tools for composers and producers worldwide.
As a multidisciplinary artist, Zurab’s work extends into literature and philosophy. He is the author of “BETA”, an experimental book published exclusively on this website. This ongoing project serves as a digital canvas for his exploration of existential themes, blending narrative storytelling with his broader audio-visual vision.
